Dear Diary, 'Sit Home & Spend The Day Online'

Dear Diary,

Today was one of those ‘sit home and spend the day online’ days. I didn’t do much really, and what kept the whole ‘doing nothing’ act going on is the fact that I got sick and had to stay in bed instead of going out. That was a bummer!

Though a lot of people think staying home is unbearable, I find it has a useful side to it! I mean, not only do I get a lot of time to work on things I need to get done, or practice a hobby that can be practiced in the comfort of my home, I get some time to myself. Just a moment to stand back and admire the road I have marched on and how far I have come.

Eighteen years and here I am… They passed by so fast; I can’t even tell where I spent it all. Time is precious and so dear to us. It’s our human nature that makes us hold on to it with both hands even though we know we’re going to have to let go eventually.

The day wasn’t so bad. I didn’t mind much that I spent it home. In fact, I was trying to imitate a video I checked on YouTube that lets you cartoon a photo. It’s harder than it looks!! =P
And as embracing as it is to share my failure in Photoshop, but I will anyway. It seriously took me hours! Considering that I had several attempts before finally getting one completely done and have it presented for you.

But first, here’s the video I followed:

I didn’t follow the exact same steps, just enough to be able to go through with the photo. I wanted to finish so I took the easy road eventually I guess  =$ But to be fair, his way was harder and he flashed forward a lot of important steps, so had to cope with what I had.

And here’s mine: (No tough criticism please, though its scary! But I did my best =P)

Close Enough!

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Love Knocks You Down yet Gives You a Hand ♥

“It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.”

Love Knocks You Down yet Gives You a Hand

Love… What do we really know about it?!
Such a powerful word can hardly be described and be given a meaning

Letters filling my paper will never cut it

It’s the widest of worlds out there and you’re still taking peeks from holes in the wall

Watch out! The vision can get a little blurry

Don’t look away, for some portraits will lead you astray

That image out there have been painted by others

A photograph taken in a life of utter pretending

Love isn't that scene you have seen in a movie while flipping channels

Those words you've read in a book when you were trying to pass time

Fables have been videoed to pleasure our imagination

Myths and dreams; written to feed our hunger for ‘Happily Ever Afters’

Known as Cinderella with glass slippers, spending midnights dancing beneath the stars

Sleeping beauty; awakened with what’s supposedly a true love’s kiss

And finally, life was breathed in a puppet of pine in Pinocchio’s fairytale

Close that book and change that path ‘cause life isn’t that magical

Love is when you’re sick and your mother spends sleepless nights on the side of the bed

When a fair maiden keeps writing letters to her beloved one even when she knows he’s not receiving any

When a brave soldier holds up his armor and gets ready for darker ages for the sake of his country

And when you’re ready to sacrifice your own happiness to get someone else to smile.

You can never truly know what love is
until you come face with something precious and deer to your heart

When you know it’s slipping away

Yet you still tighten your grip and hold on for as long as possible

It’s then when you’ll feel helpless and fragile as a house of cards

For my dear friend you have tasted perfection and got addicted

Climbed the highest branch for that apple hanging from the tree

And now you’re trembling at the thought of falling

You don’t always find what’ll cushion your drop

You’ll fall down the rabbit hole and find yourself in a world of chaos and confusion

The light will seem farther than ever

And spend sleepless nights at what could have been

Why do bed time stories always end with a happy ending??

What if Cinderella didn't match the slippers??

What if sleeping beauty spent a life time in an eternal sleep??

What if the world made sense??

But when that really happens; when the wind blows out every card

Let the curtains fall down – Another round of applause

Hold down your head and simply take the loss

Take your hat off and bow; for it has been quite the show

Don’t let the credits roll, for it’s merely the beginning

Rinse those puffy eyes and let the rain wash away what’s left from yesterday

Stop crying on your mama’s shoulder

Have the courage to turn the next page and write you own scenarios

You can’t give up! To turn your back to love!

It’s love that makes us extraterrestrials with infinite powers

It’s love that crafts a master piece

And it’s also love that creates the perfect book

It’s love that makes behind every nightmare a bigger bed to crawl into

That turns the clock around and gives the strength to forgive

To get the slightest scratch yet find all your loved ones around

To shed a tear only because you’re happy

The love for your mother, for your father and your grandmother

Your sister, your brother and your friend

It’s an infinite world of blissful affections and relationships like no other

And if you ever got knocked down by love, it’s love again that’ll give you a hand

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Graduation Speech

I'm pretty much awake and it's almost 1:00am - Everybody else at here is asleep so thought I'd post something. What you're about to read was my high school graduation speech; the one I never actually said. The administration chose someone "else"; someone that represented the school best; or so they think. And I never really stood up for it which from where I'm standing at the moment, looking back at that time, I kinda regret it. With the hope of having the opportunity to say another speech at my university graduation someday. Until then, enjoy reading what was never heard.

We can finally kick-back and relax because we have made it to graduation day. All the stressful nights that have tested most of our limits of sanity have finally paid off; for today is the day. The last eighteen years of our lives, everything we’ve accomplished, everything we’ve been through, has led us to “Today”. It seems like it all just happened yesterday… Elementary  school, middle school, high school; it all seems like it happened in a flash! Twelve years of school, fourteen years of life and just one day to graduate.

A little over twelve years ago I walked through those same doors for my first day of school. My dad was taking pictures, mom had the “My little girl is growing up” look in her eyes and I met some really cool kids. And here I am today; dad’s still holding the camera, mom’s still emotional and I’m surrounded by almost the exact same friends.

It has been a long journey for all of us. Neither the stop signs, nor the bumps on the road prevented us from being here today. And as we look back on the road we marched through and the knowledge we have acquired after all of our hard work, we must realize that it’s merely the beginning of the rest of our lives. We have reached a turning point, but whichever avenue we choose to pursue and walk through, there will always be a reward to gain, challenges to face and opportunities to encounter.

High school might not have been a perfect experience for some of us or even close, but never forget it’s only a fraction of life, for despite the rough patches, we’re here today.

Today we take off the slough of arch-childhood and tomorrow we take off with our drive on the road that’s not taken into the real wide world. I can promptly say I’m proud to be among you all and we can honestly say we are the champions of two-thousand and eleven.

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Dear Diary, 1990's Cartoons

Dear Diary,
Today, for some weird reason, I felt like reminiscing a part of my childhood. I had some free time so decided to watch a movie. It was Lion King, in fact I watched the sequel when I was done with the first one!
Their's just something about old Disney films that made our childhoods worth it. I mean, now a days, cartoon is different and not in a good way. What happened to the spark that was found in Walt Disney classics! It was never just another cartoon to watch to pass the time! It was the characters, the stories and of course the amazing sound tracks! They had it all; an entire package. 

Just look at Toy Story and how it was all about friendship and holding on to our friends even when time and distance interfere. 

Lion king, where the moral behind that incredible movie is that we should face our fears no matter what and never grab onto the past; move forward and put it all behind you. More over, it targets that we're all equal, the same and we stand as one; as a total unite.

Mulan; Don't let boundaries hold you back... Gender shouldn't affect the path you take on. Have the courage to stand against traditions, against forced situations and rise with your own strength.

Pocahontas; Violence is never the answer, you can't fight fire with fire or else you'll just get burned. Don't judge others by the way they look, you two could be more similar than you think. Even if the appearance differed, common ground can be found.   

A Bug's Life; even the smallest of them all can achieve greatness as long as we stick together. We could be weak when we're out on our own, but together, we're invincible...

Finding Nemo, Pinocchio, National Treasure, Alice In Wonderland, Peter Pan and so many great movies that made us love growing up in the 1990's!
Yet nowadays, feels like the past is all what we have left because it all vanished... Cartoon is becoming more and more rubbish. Masterpieces like those are never coming back for the days of innocent childhoods are long gone. Movies are no longer the same, kids aren't either and time have definitely taken its course. It's just sad that none of the upcoming generations will enjoy that pure impeccable time we had while turning on the television and being mesmerized every Friday night with another great film to watch. Those memories shall last forever for their deep within me.

Movies where only good in the 1990's

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Coming Soon - Startup Weekend Event

Dear Diary,

As a write this, it's 1:42 am. The following picture that you'll be seeing is for an upcoming event; Startup Weekend. I'm pretty much excited! I'm actually going to participate in it with my fellow students from BAU Computer Club. I'll keep you all updated with what will go on through out the entire weekend, but for now, I'm trying to register! x_x

Catch us later with  more news about the event and definitely pictures!

About Startup Weekend: Startup Weekends are 54-hour events designed to provide superior experiential education for technical and non-technical entrepreneurs.  Beginning with Friday night pitches and continuing through brainstorming, business plan development, and basic prototype creation, Startup Weekends culminate in Sunday night demos and presentations.  Participants create working startups during the event and are able to collaborate with like-minded individuals outside of their daily networks. All teams hear talks by industry leaders and receive valuable feedback from local entrepreneurials. The weekend is centered around action, innovation, and education.  Whether you are looking for feedback on a idea, a co-founder, specific skill sets, or a team to help you execute, Startup Weekends are the perfect environment in which to test your idea and take the first steps towards launching your own startup.

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Dear Diary, "Always Leave Them Wanting More"

Dear Diary,
It's been a while since I last posted! Not quite sure of the date, but sure feels like it!
I guess this is what happens when you get caught up in life and it seems that you never find the time to log in and post something.


But then again, it's always nice to take a break in a way that keeps readers longing for your next post. I'm not really sure about who's out there reading this, but still! =) 
And as they say "Always leave them wanting more" -


That's a really powerful quote and it relates 100% to human reaction. If you think about it, we always seek for what we can't have... When we finally do jump enough to touch or even take a sniff of the scent of what we're crazing for, we're triggered to try more; maybe even get addicted.


But after a while, after the magic is gone... What do we have left? Nothing. We've read so much, or tried it for a certain amount of time that it gets boring and dull... And there you have it, we're out there fetching for another "next new thing" to chase.


This is human nature, that's how we tend to react with daily issues we face. Tip to you reader where ever you may be:
Don't ruin what you have just because of a craving, have a patience and take moderate amount. An overdose isn't something you would ever up to.

Never reach obsession - Want things moderately

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Technology Bluffin'

Couple of steps forward and there I was on the platform of surrender; for my dear friend, I gave up once. After roaming this world and being star-struck by its mighty power and the thrown it settled on, I thought I’ll never talk again for it left me speechless. But, what was mostly breath taking was the crown above. So precious and priceless, seemed the world was nothing without it; and it was technology. My sign became vital and was on my knees looking for the answer. For technology could be on our side, but can even bluff us as it raises the bars.

What was once a shield to protect and evolve humanity could turn into a lethal weapon. Gun powder everywhere, cannons echoing through the field and there you are in a battle field where it’s too late to put your hands up and raise that white flag; that ship have sailed to far-away land. But what most humans are blinded sighted off the fact that the power to build or demolish is in the palm of their own hands.

Technology should not be underestimated for mankind has brought to life a power like no other. Day by day we evolve, we get stronger, but we still get weaker. Even though we're protected by our development and shielded from harms yet it can be held against us someday...

Watch out...

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Dear Diary, I'm More Than A Piece Of Coal

Dear Diary,
Sometimes I wonder if I made a good choice when I decided to study engineering... I mean, did I really walk in the right path?? Don't get me wrong, I love studying to be an engineer; an industrial engineer to be specific but, I don't want to stop here.


I have sooo many skills I have always wanted to invest in and sharpen them. I feel like I'm a piece of coal desperately trying to be something more and become something bigger. Growing up and walking this path - the whole studying to be an engineer - wasn't my only choice. It's typical jobs like that are what our society forces upon us. The pressure from the outside is huge. How can i make it in a world like this? The answer is simple... You don't.


I still love it though! I do have a strong passion for science and technology and I do want to gain skills in that area. I want to be known for my knowledge and inventions; I just  wish I can do more.
Why not add to that by being a writer, an interior designer, even just make animated cartoons. I want to be a lot of things... But how?


It gets so hard when I work alone on improving myself; when i'm not focused on something and instead I'm juggling a lot of balls. I never know where to start and I'm always lost. How can I ever see the finish line if I can't even tell where the start one is, where I stand. I'm not close to being ready, never less than getting set and go...


I'm trying to keep all the balls in the air and not let them touch the ground; I'll always will no matter how hard it gets. I'm a dreamer and I'll always seek to becoming more than coal. I dream and I know that I shall shine as a diamond someday.

I just have to keep on working

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Dear Diary, Sharing Old Poems

Dear Diary,

Today, a friend came up to me and brought up some old poems I wrote couple of years back. I almost forgot about them. I had them published as notes on Facebook about three or four years ago; and that's how he knew that I had a whole new side of me behind that engineer he knew around campus.

I think I've grown over the years and my points of view have definitely broadened. I no longer have the same style as before. Maybe you'll witness a glimpse of me, but I with no doubt have changed.

I've always loved to write and express my feelings in words, but I've truly wanted this ever since the tenth grade. It was then when I met an enemy whom through him I realized that I wanted to be a better writer. He doesn't know it, but I pretty much owe it to him that I entered the world of writing. He never realized that he drove me to this world... He made me push myself to be proven as a writer and have my words worth reading. It was then when I came to realize that there’s a whole diverse and colorful world in every book, every page and every word we write.

I have come a long way ever since. My writing was a bit limited and all I wrote back then was poems. Just sat in class, fourth table to the right - near the window - and wrote...

Well anyway, I decided to share some of  those poems... (Best of the Worst!)

Without You

(My FIRST poem EVER - Only reason I'm sharing it is because I think it's awful =P )

Each day you make it hard for me to survive 
For you are the torch that keeps me alive 
You get far from my reach everyday 
And my life is the price that i pay 
Seeing you without knowing that your mine 
Aband me from the feeling of being fine 
Knowing that we'll never be together 
Hurts me deeply and makes me suffer 
The fact that things are just not meant to be 
Sucks what's left of life out of me

Untitled:

Was standing on an edge; hanging from a cleft 
High above the ground 

Thoughts were spinning in my head 
Going round and round 

Took a look on the world beneath me 
Stared at the sun that was starting to hide behind the wide sea 

Grabbed my necklace from my pocket and tied it around my neck 
Needed all the power I can get to mend this wreck 

I had a lot to say; I had a lot to share 
Wasn't sure if you were going to care 

My lips weren't ready to murmur what they wanted 
The unspoken had to be put in words if the truth haunted 

As I took another glimpse at the ocean, the sun was gone 
And for some reason I fell into the unknown and started to drown 

Lost the rhythm that made me sway to the music of life 
For without my special dance I only gained grief 

Yet I never had the option to explain; covered it all with an excuse 
Never had the chance to swing; I hope I didn’t lose 

Wasted the chance that I've been given 
But I’ll explain and maybe I’d be forgiven 

And if the sun wasn’t meant to rise and shine 
Then I’ll take my bow and resign 

For then I’ll know that my world is supposed to be all black 
And maybe someday we’ll meet again on a new track 

A Prayer:

Last night was different than many 
The moon was full; the stars were shiny 

Landed my head on my pillow, but couldn’t sleep 
The thought of you made my heart skip a beat 

It was late, started counting the sheep 
But you on my mind drove me to the unending street 

Not a single sound; not even a whisper 
Just my voice calling God; for I’m his loyal worshiper 

Praying so that you’d hear me 
So that you’d actually hear my heart beats 
So that you’d walk next to me 
Where our hands will finally meet 

Praying so that you’d guide me through this journey of mine 
Where the rising sun would sentence my dark world to shine 

Praying so that you’d hear my screams 
And spot on me the sparkling beam 

A beam that would be shed from the holy sky 
Where It would give me the ability to survive and get one last try 

Praying so that you’d be there next to me till eternity 
Where the rays of the golden sun would shine my reality 

Suddenly my eyes came to a rest 
And my heart pumped for the last time 

I guess it should what’s next; I guess it should the end 
Whatever it should, it was a sign 

See, the thought of you not around 
Sends me to a deep sleep with no coming back 
Where my heart would be too weak to survive 
And get back on track 

The day I’ll top thinking about you 
Is the day I close my eyes forever 

New Season:

Everything happens for a reason 
Here comes a new season 

Was this gentle rose that was left in the rain 
From my sparkling bright colors I was drained 

But, here comes a new season; here comes you 
Managed to help me even when you couldn’t turn the sky blue 

Was sentenced to death with every fallen drop 
Got weaker and weaker; almost wasted away. They just wouldn’t stop 

All alone in the wide field. Suddenly found myself circled like a prey 
Too vulnerable to have thorns or a strong shield. Mislaid in the burning hay 

And just when I was about to surrender to centuries of rain 
You came and whipped away all the pain 

You kept me in your arms so tight 
You made everything seem so right 

You saved me from the frozen winter ground 
With your murmuered words or any kind of sound 

Was lost in the dark forest where whispers persuade 
But with your powerful words you made it all fade 

The glory of the day was beneath your sight 
Protected me from above and with your Hazel eyes you won the fight 

The beauty of the night was after each breath you made 
It was something I wasn’t willing to trade 

Here comes a new season. I still stand to this day 
Here comes you. I have become indestructible in every way 

Now, when rain clouds come to play 
I know you’ll be there to chase them away 

I’ll trudge on, hoping the angels will take me home 
Till the end of the road I’m taking is shown 

There I’ll find you rising in full submission 
Where I’ll be confident that what we share has no conditions 
For you’re my guarding angel

Maybe:

Maybe someday we will talk and not just speak
And maybe time will finally bring us to meet

Maybe someday we will feel and not just touch
And maybe life will bring us back

Maybe someday we will listen and not just hear
And maybe I will find myself in your arms so dear

Maybe someday we will stare and not just look
And maybe I will see through you like open doors

Maybe someday my hand will find yours
And maybe our love will forever grapple

Maybe someday you will feel my heart beat
And maybe our agony will soon fade away

Maybe someday we will notice that it didn’t disappear
And maybe it wasn’t strong enough to appear

Maybe someday I will be able to say what’s on my mind
And maybe the reality will figure out the words that we couldn’t find

Maybe someday you will know that my heart beats at the rhythm of yours
And maybe the distance between us will come to an end

Maybe someday you will see that I was never fine
And maybe you will find that I was just speechless in the face of pain

But until that day arrives
I whisper again…Maybe

It's Fate

The walls were closing on me, the light was fading away
Thought I should hold on tight, but I was mislead to the wrong way
Every crack in the wall that the light used to crawl in managed to disappear
Everything was all blurry and fading; it was just mixed up and not clear

No living soul was left down there
Was forgotten all alone, with no one to care
Tied up and left behind in that corner that never witnessed the light
Used to keep on fighting for my survival no matter how much the chains got tight

Sat with my week body on that cold floor
Saw what’s behind the lies like open doors
Took a look on the marks that were done by the chains that almost crashed my wrist
Stared at the scares and blood that were found on my fists 
Deep and unhealed wounds were scattered all over me
Wanted badly to escape, but it was just not meant to be

Lost hope, lost faith; was bleeding to death
Was saying my last words and taking my last breath
Needed to run away and find someplace where I could belong
Was it too much to ask? Was it so wrong?

Spent my sleepless nights trying to figure a way out
Tried to cream out loud, tried to scream and shout 
But I was never heard, I never had a reply
Was left down there to suffer till the day I die

The sharp words crashed around and let me walk in the wrong way
And I’m still lost till this very same day
But now I have given up, I have surrendered to this everlasting pain
I have accepted the fact that I’ll always be held back by a chain 

I don’t want to keep on surviving like this, I don’t want to fight
I just wish I could run away even if it’s for one night
To just for once be able to close my eyes and sleep with nothing on my mind
Is it too much to ask for? Is it too hard to find?

I miss the days of ignorance, but now it’s too late
It’s just how things are meant to work in this world…its Fate

Loving You

(A friend requested a poem that described her story - If you connect the first letter in ever part you'll end up having a name ;) ... That was a part of the request!)

Meeting you was the day I was saved from the dark
Rescued me and carved in my heart a mark

On cold wings you came and saved me
And with your love you set me free

Having you was a wish that came true
Now I can’t imagine loving anyone but you

An angel from heaven that settled on my shoulder
And with your absence I only felt colder

Made it worth living to witness a new day
For you left inside me a print that’ll forever stay

A gift from the heavens, that’s what you truly are
But what hurts me the most is that now we’re far

Darkness came back and took over
And you left me to face it with no shade or a cover

Kisses and hugs were the last thing on your mind, which made it even more real
But in the end, you left me alone in the dark as if you have no heart to feel

How could you forget me so easily and be so heartless
My life revolved around you, and I considered you as a bless

On with hope of getting you back to the grave
For I’ll never give up, and for your true love I’ll always crave

Damage and pain concurred my life after you
And you moved on not having a clue what you were going to leave me threw

On your sweet words and gentle smile I’ll always be addicted
You always surprised me, and your actions were never predicted

Remember me…At least try to
For you left me feeling pain, and I still do

Say something and don’t leave me hanging in a place so dead
Held up so high on a breakable thread

How did we get here? Was it something I did?
Or was it something you said?

Every breath I take without you is harder than the other
For it wounds me sharply and makes me suffer

How could you leave me without even saying goodbye?
As if all we shared was one big lie

A hollow body is what I am after you
Lost in the dark woods waiting for the sky to turn blue

Baring all this pain just to see you one more time
Loving you was hard, loving you was worth it
Loving you was the crime of my life…

Would It?

Would it kill you to tell me the truth
And what's behind every lie
To put me out of my misery
And let my eyes finally dry

Would it kill you to draw a line for the pain I embrace
And give back the smile to my face
To let my wounds heel without leaving a scar
And to let me run away from it all to somewhere far

Would it kill you to block away the sorrow that's here to stay
And with the powerful truth you'd turn things the other way
To shake away the felted fear
And forbid the drop of another tear

Would it kill you to erase every fake truth from my mind
And just let me leave everything behind
To let me take a step forward
And forget the fact that you lied to my face and never said a word

When will that happen
When will it come true
When you tell another lie
And watch me suffer till I die

I can't stand and do nothing 
While you go rip my heart off all over again
To act like nothing is wrong 
And just take a step back and watch you leave another black stain

Don’t you tell me it's for the best and that you care
Cause it's just not fair
It'll only be another lie between us
And another tear in the ocean

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Dear Diary, Change

Dear Diary,

The other day I woke up to find the house all to myself; yet, at around 9:00am in the morning, there isn't really much to do. I went into the living room, sat on the sofa and starting flipping channels. Click, click, click... 

I don't usually find something that interests me easily and most days I stick to certain channels I'm accustomed to. But for some reason, I found myself pausing my clicks and watching a movie; which by how the houses looked, what people dressed and how they talked, I could tell it meant that the event occurred in 1960's.

After watching couple of scenes I then realized it was the movie based on the number one New York Times best seller, "The Help". Ever since I heard it was in theaters and the buzz the movie made, I wanted to watch it; but never really had the chance to.

The movie was spectacular; blinking while watching such a great book that have come to life would be as if committing a crime! I was blown away and mesmerized in my seat through it all.

The story behind the movie, the strong performance, the characters... It was more than just another film rolling in front of my eyes; it was tremendous...

I think such movies touch a person's heart and makes us think; at least to me. 

Seeing the life back then and how discrimination concurred our souls and made us blind - Tracing how far we have come and the major leaps taken by the society - And finally, looking at the world we are roaming at these moments... 

Even though times has changed, yet we can always find resemblance. Among us are a lot of people who look at you and the first thing that comes to their thoughts is the color of your skin. Some still act superior to those whom they disagree with. And last, but not least, we have the fact that is the most simple of them all and the toughest to change about who we are as humans; It's that we're afraid to change and take a step forward. 

We tremble and fear to take a different road, to stand up for what we believe in, to be a mind thinking on its own and finally be free from all the constrains we face from those who are around us. We're constantly being fed what is right and wrong without even taking a moment to judge by ourselves, and we're continuously being lead around and told who we are and what we want. But in reality, WE don't know what we want...

We have to be strong to stand in the face of black and white, hold the brush and introduce colors to our pale world. We must welcome what's new even if we fell at our first attempts or else the universe will forever remain as dull. 

Embrace change, take charge and be patient. The world wasn't created in one day, change needs time, and it happens in small steps from each and every one.

Be your own person, don't tie yourself with a leash...

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Bullets & Arrows ➶

I'm tired, all burnt out and decaying with every passing minute
Word by word their blowing out the fire ignited inside of me
Taking pleasure in destroying the spark I worked on for so long
Locked in a dungeon with no way out; forced to listen to what they had to say
Like poison poured in my cup while I turn away


Back stabbed and locked behind bars; circled like a prey
Haunted down; I have come face to face with my slayers
Slaughtering me and peeling my skin slowly
For they have lead me astray off my path


Lost direction, lost my way, but most of all, lost myself
Prisoner in mind and thought... Caged to get walked on
They had me in full submission... Seeking selfish accomplishments
Dragged around; suffering all because of their fake smiles and betrayals
Blinded by how every mask was diverse and more colorful than the other


I shall knee no more... No more folding to the thought of their protection
I'm better off on my own... I fall only to levitate better and stronger
Better off alone than surrounded by a crowd who's lusting for my blood
Praying for my fall; wishing for my strike... Aiming at me with every bullet and arrow


I shall come front with them one day; I shall rise once more
No more being weakened by the thought of being alone
I shall escape the black forest; I'm no longer their quarry
No more holding on to what was once called "golden days"
I shall turn my back to whoever is holding the whip
No more scars on my back trading a mark for every time they were with me
I'm walking out... Dead or alive


Yet I'll always look back at this and see how much I've grown
"Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me" -
Age of breaking and draining is long gone; Standing up even though I've been shot
Their were made to make it hurt, but now I only stand stronger to dodge what's next!

Rising from the ground...

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Energy Fair 2012

Dead Diary,
Today, I attended something called Energy Fair that was held at Beil (Lebanon-Beirut). It was pretty amazing. I mean just imagine meters and meters of people who came together just to show what they have to the world! Innovation, creativity and breath taking ideas that simply blew our minds and introduced us to an infinite world of practical art, machines, and products.
The work those people have done was amazing! A lot of projects stood out in terms of appearance while others had high effective and efficient usages!
Some pictures I took:

Bags that can charge your cellphone, laptop or even turn on a television. Blew my mind! How useful is that?! Not out in the market yet, but as soon as they are, I'm definitely buying me one of those! They are generated by any source of heat (Sun, Lamp, or even temperature...etc). Extremely useful, my mobile battery always dies on me!

What I loved about those windows is that they're are similar to average ones in addition to being top hung windows. But that's not all... They are sound proof, water proof and also obstruct temperature. 

Just look at the LENGTH of that drilling TOOL!

A dream shower! It has a wide platform on top, and it also splashes water sideways.

The catalog for that company was impressive! Who new showers could be that in interesting.

Civil engineering students at my university study Surveying. Instead of those old fashion machines to measure landscapes and so, a new and improved product is found. It's done through lasers!

Okay, this one might be simple, and in fact it's a common product actually. It's a camera that detects motion; we have those at my university. I just started dancing near it so that it would detect my motion and eventually take this picture you're seeing right now! xD

It's a great idea though!

Embossed Printing! I think the word says it all. Beautiful! I'm into art and decorations a lot and their was so many great and diverse texture.

And last but not least, art done with nothing but simple marbles! A M A Z I N G. This completely grabbed my attention from the first look and was eager just to go their and ask them all about it! The artistic vision a person should have to come up with something so enchanting. Tiny pieces of marble turned into a breath taking master piece. I love it!

The exhibit was so much fun! Soo many more interesting products where out there, but I only had a little time to go over half of them! What a shame! Heart broken by the fact that today was its last day and I'll never get the chance to see what others have presented!

Amazed!

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Dear Diary, Summer Is Here ☼

Dear Diary,
Yesterday was my last final exam and today, with no further introduction, I officially start my 2012 summer! For the first time in a very long time, I'm actually excited about "summer"!
To many, it might have been that time of the year where they can finally kick back, relax and enjoy some time off to clear their minds. But, not me...
For as long as I can remember, I have been spending my summer in a house we own outside the city. I've hated it! I mean, the area there is almost dead! Feels like time stops just inside that house and that region while every where else people are moving on with their lives.
Even though by the start of next month we'll probably switch houses and spend the summer there also, I just feel it with every bone in my body that this summer is going to be better. I mean, I'm in clubs now and we have meeting all over the summer, I'm thinking of taking a course to find something to do in those days that I'd be out of money to go out and finally I'm trying to attend this really cool camp, and a lotttt more!
Maybe this time it would truly be different...
Different friends, different activities, but most importantly - Different ME!

New Summer!

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